I’m a few months away from my 20th birthday and I want to make big changes in my life. For most of my teenage years I’ve been getting lazier, I’ve procrastinated everything and just been getting sadder and sadder. My grades in school used to be on the high side, but they’ve slowly been going down. I never used to study for tests but still did good on them; I still don’t, but I can’t pass with flying colors anymore. I’ve gotten worse at school because my laziness, which has extended into my personal life. All of the adult things I should be doing aren’t getting done because I don’t put in any time or effort into doing them. When I do show some intent to invest in them though, I sit down and try to do them, but just end up slacking off and not getting anything done. I have a paper to do for school, which I actually have a great idea for and do want to do it, but after spending an hour thinking about it before being able to sit down and work on it, I just ended up spending 2 hours doing nothing productive. All of this procrastination and laziness has been making me so depressed because my life isn’t going ANYWHERE. I’ve thought about suicide as a last resort if I can’t get out of this rut, because I don’t want to live with my mother or anything for my whole life as a failure. How can I get myself to actually get anything done and stop being so sad and depressed?