My problem is connected to my body. Or to be more precise, the way I perceive it. This is of course the cause of further problems. I am a lean person (just because I am), but I have always been dissatisfied with my body. Legs, butt, breast, hands, etc… Sometimes I feel so bad I start crying (like today) standing in front of a mirror. I just want to stay home. Whenever I see a person being thinner that me I immediately start feeling bad about myself and think “why can’t I look like her”. I have a boyfriend (for 3 years now, we live together) who always assures me that I look perfect, that I’m sexy and all the things boyfriend cann assure you about. The worst thing I sometimes happen to think is that he says so, because he is in a relationship with me and cannot say anything bad (I know it is not true). I sometimes feel not good enough for him (he has never made me feel so, this is only because of my mentality). And here comes the second problem – jealousy. I am not jealous of every girl he gets to know. I do not argue with him about them. However I feel jealous everytime any other girl gets more attention from him (like you pay attantion to people you like, a friend or best friend). I am afraid he will find that person better life companion than me. I’m not afraid (like never ever!) he will cheat on me but he will pay more attention to that person, than to me. The fact is he is the student of medicine and do not have much time to spend only with me as he is almost always learning. I am not angry at him as I know he would love to have more time but he can’t, so I try to be forgiving (lenient, I do not know the word), but sometimes it happened he was talking to his friends on Facebook chat than to me (we live in one room). There is also one girl this all started from. Let’s call her Eva. I would love to look like her. She is tall, very thin, photogenic and beautiful (now she has a boyfriend, when he met her, she was sinle). My boyfriend says he does not like the way she looks – she is too thin for him, however I like her look so much it is hard for me to realize it. And this is the girl he was talking to more than to me. I sometimes could not get the response from him but he rushed to the phone every time she sent a message. We woke up, he was taking his phone and without saying “hello” to me started writing with her, because she has sent a message. My mother indirectly contributed to my securities. For 19 years I was listening to all this “I am not good enough for you”, “You will find better, younger and thinner wife than me”, “I’m fat” (in fact she is. She had perfect body before pregnancy, but then she had to take pills that cause many health issues she has to take pills for + they caused gaining weight and made it almost impossible to lose it), “Admit, you fing her more attractive than me”. I hoped I will never do something like that, but now it turns out I am doing exactly the same. I want to get rid of it! I’m tired of that, but I do not know how to do it! I have tried many things but the worked teporarily. Can you try to help me? Maggie.