So i’m shy. but its different… it’s like shy… but to the point where i cant do anything…if there’s somebody around i get scared and nervous..i guess it could be anxiety as well..im not sure. it just…its hurts..because i see a group of people like at the pool and i cant even get in the pool, much less barely make it to the pool and sit there… i just cant do it.. im so scared. i like people…i love talking to people..online..but in person..its like..i hate myself so so sooo much. and i just know others will. im so weird and i freak people out. i have no idea how to carry on a simple conversation. im terrible at it. im always so scared..it brings me to tears.. i just dont know what to do..my parents think im just rude and hate the world.i dont hate the world. i try and spread good vibes everywhere i go..but its hard to do that when you have such a terrible time with even being around people..i just..would really like some advice.. sorry for rambling.