I do a similar thing. I think of someone I wish was dead and then idly entertain the thought that I could kill them. I deal by thinking about my brother and best friend. They are the two people that I love and really care about in this world. So everytime you find yourself thinking about these things imagine how the people you love and care about feel. If that doesn't works I suggest seeing a therapist. I know this guy who saw a therapist because he had homicidal thoughts. He was sent to some place for 2 weeks where he was under survalence and at the end he got medication. I've talked to him recently and he said it really helped him and even suggest I talk to a therapist. So if getting a therapist is something you are able to do, I highly suggest it. Best of luck!!!
You mean what are they? Apparently it's a part of OCD and you just get these thoughts that you are going to possibly hurt yourself or someone else and I always over think them like just now I thought about school shooting and I kept thinking how could anybody do that? But then I started to think could I? Like what if I one day just go completely crazy and end up hurting someone.
Well idk like I said I over think the thoughts and lately Ive been able to tell myself like "What? No way I could never hurt someone it's just me being paranoid" and Ill try to think of different positive things but the bad things will stay in the back of my mind and a lot of times I end up having panic attacks over them and I just started therapy for my anxiety and my therapist will also tell me he doesn't think I would ever hurt anyone and I know I won't but thesis thing I worried about is like, you see all these people on TV and the news about normal people going crazy and hurting people and Im just really scared IM going to turn into one of those people but I won't know that until it happens so Im pretty much terrified of the future
I think you need to start with feeding your mind with good thoughts,read good books,watch only good movies,see good people,etc,if you add more good in your mind the bad will start to go away.If you find you cant manage that,then go seek counseling to help you learn to do get rid of those bad things.Good luck!