So i just started highschool last week and its not really that bad to be honest..its just some minor things that get me really depressed like getting seperated from one of my closest friends… and she doesnt really seem to care so i am sort of trying to forget about her… at the same time i dont because i longed for a ‘best’ friend like her and i was so happy to be her best friend but she doesnt really act like it. she has her own group ( the girly girl/social/cute/happy girls) and i have mine.. consisting of just 2 girls … me and mah weeaboo babe, dont get me wrong i love here to death. But for some reason i get that ashamed feeling when its just us two … i want to be in a group with the cool happy bubbly girls but i dont even know how to socialize anymore.. if i talked to girls like that theyd just turn me down or make fun of me or something. And even the other ‘friends’ that i have now dont even talk to me let alone even say hi. i see them but its like their social status would be ruined if they were caught talking to me. Plus theres this guy i used to like ( which i am trying to get over but its not very easy ) still glances at me every now and then and im not sure he likes me or not… he did it all last year even after i told him i liked him but when i confessed he just said he wanted to be friends and we never really talked after that but he still looks and such. this guy is really confusing. I want to get out there and talk to people. Im tired of always feeling alone inside a big crowded room. i cry inside when i see all of my friends in middle school with all their new friends knowing i have made none. I cry inside when i see people look at me and just look for someone else and get to know them. I cry inside when my friends ditch for someone they barely know. This all doesnt help my depression at all … someone please help