Need someone to talk to and be friends with

Iv’e been posting questions and seeking some companionship for a while now and really just wanna see if there are any people who are as lonely as I am. Sometimes I feel like it’s just me but i know that I am not the only one who is as lonely as I feel. I have an inferiority complex which keeps pessimism pumping like blood through my body. I am constantly having thoughts that I deserve bad things to happen to me and that I shouldn’t even try to talk to girls and people in general cause of how I look and stuff like that. I used to be very confident and optimistic about life in general but since the walls caved in around me, the wind has been taking from my sails and I feel like I am stuck now. There is a lot more to explain and i hold everything in cause I feel like I’m just gonna be annoying and that no one wants to hear my bullshit anyway. Not to mention that it is very unattractive to have feelings or “issues” as a guy. Women want a man who doesn’t complain and has everything under control, which is another reason that I feel like I’m never ever gonna be desirable to a girl. I don’t know what to say….I guess I’ve just lost my way and have too much on my plate and I’m so stressed. I take care of my mother who is disabled and we are being evicted from our place right now. She cant even walk but I have to somehow take care of myself and her with no family or resources to help us, and my income is limited to less than 200 a month, so its really really hard to do this, and also put the pieces of my life back together. All I really want is to find a girl who I can please and be there for. Someone who will accept me for who i am and understand the things I am going through and have been through……Like I said, there is a lot more to tell but I’m done talking right now….I’d really like to know if there is any hope for me and….I don’t know, I’m gonna crack my pint and actually try to relax tonight (I rarely drink so don’t think I have any monkeys making residence on my back….I’ve been clean for 41 months from heroin and cocaine)