My mom has always been a best friend and I think we were closer when we were younger. Things were stable (somewhat) back then. After my brother left, it seemed like the financial situation deteroriated. I’m in college now but I come home during summers to work. My grandma lives with my mom and has been helping her financially because she was/is a single mother. I have been suicidal since I was 14 and I wish my mom realized she was one of the main reasons why. Money wise, it’s bad. Recently, she’s been a month or two behind on her rent, and our landlord has cut off our access to wash clothes. I don’t make much a week, and when I do, it goes towards my own bills. I wouldn’t mind helping her, and I do from time to time, but it seems to be really constant. I don’t know. I feel selfish for saying that although she’s nearing her 60s, I thought she would be doing better than this. :/ Instead of asking her boyfriend, who makes more than her, I can’t understand why I always have to feel like I owe her money for things. (She’s always kind of treated her boyfriends better than me). I don’t have it like that. I really can’t wait to move out, because I hate where we live, I hate having to go home and barely speak to my mom because we had an argument. I just don’t know what to do. I can’t keep living like this.