i don’t know what to do with my life. I have an addiction that i want to stop but i can’t. i can’t really find any good reasons to be happy at home. the only time i am happy is when I am at school, and i hate school. Right no i just want to cut my self and bleed to death. I really hate my life.
It's alright if you don't know what to do with your life. That's a process you have to go through in life, the feeling of being lost. There are sometimes in life where you have to hold out, and I know saying, "Life gets better," is cliche. However it really does get better. Remember, there are people who are going through problems similar to yours. Because you are a teenager, it's hard since you cannot change the environment you're in and you're confined to it. While researching Buddhism I read something interesting, "Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional." That quote changed my life, because it's all about perspective. Although I do not know your exact circumstances. I do know that if you see life as this horrible nightmare, that's all it will ever be. Is it easy to change? Heck no! However, it is absolutely possible and that's what matters even in the most darkest moments of our lives. I believe that you can win over your inner demons. Many others have done it before, and you will too! http://www.cracked.com/blog/5-reasons-life-actually-does-get-better/
seems like you have so much going in your head and the top o it you are not sure anymore how you exactly feel.this is just one phase of your life that will pass through soon,but first you need to share each and every problem of yours with someone,it maybe you don't have any one big problem but tons of small problems that you have ignored once and has now started haunting again.things will definitely change,don't sever your bonds and suffer all alone.you could msg me if you want or talk to anyone close to you.you yourself don't know that after this phase of your life how much happiness is waiting for you.i'm sure there will come a day when you'll look back and feel better after leaving all your past behind.