I just started thinking about this so I decided to do a research on sociopath disorder, because I’m curious and I’m too lazy to study (Guiltyy..) So anyways, as I was reading about the signs and symptoms I found my self saying:
“Holy shit that sounds like him!”
And it’s true!
My ex-friend is manipulative, dosen’t care about people, thinks he’s better than everyone and thinks he will reach success in life without even trying, and not to mention he is extremely charming to his internet friends, but with his real life friends he’s really..douchy, then he never feels anxiety, fear, shame, guilt in situations. He dosen’t take anything seriously at all. When we were best friends, for the first 2 years we were like 2 peas (is that how you say it?) But this spring he started being really manipulative and he’d humiliate me in public by telling everyone embarassing stories about me, which I didn’t accept, I told him to stop and that he didn’t have my consent to that, and also to his insulting “jokes”, but he never stopped. He has made me cry a lot of times and I’ve even told him, he didn’t care. I had suicidal thoughts because of him, but I didn’t want to leave him because he was my only friend. My other ex friend (his internet friend) told him that I self harmed because of him because I asked her to, and he didn’t show reactions. And after we split up he didn’t change at all, it’s like all our friendship was a game to him. And then I realized that I was his victim, he would control me sometimes, without me realizing it. He broke me down and just moved on, just like that. He didn’t feel a bit of guilt. And now I remember even before he became like this he did have tendancies with full blown ego and carelessness. He barely feels pity for anything that suffers, and he barely supported me when I was mourning my step-dad that passed away.
The first 2 months in at school I was depressed, because I had no friends left, and it was pretty clear no matter how much I tried to hide, I’d end up laying on the table, with my head down, hiding my face and using my arms as a pillow, sometimes crying secretly, and he saw that all, and didn’t even show any reactions.
And one more thing about his signs, is that I think he has manipulated the internet friend, let’s just call her S. So me, him and S were like best friends, always on Skype and stuff, but after his behavior started, S also started changing and caring less about me. S knew I was suffering but she didn’t do anything about it, if I was in her spot I’d confront the friend and try to fix the friendship instead of watching the person suffer like that. S would also get pissed at me and we got into fights at the time of my “short-term” depression, so we ended it. So I really think he has gained control over her, maybe into not caring about me, but in other words, S has also changed for the worse.
I could talk to the school nurse, I just don’t know if I should. Does he sound like a sociopath or just like an asshole? I mean, even though he’s my ex-friend and I hate him more than anything, I’m still concerned about his health. I know it’s pretty stupid, but he needs help before he starts getting violent. He has already been mentally and emotionally abusing people (at least me..) and he seemed to enjoy it a lot.
And P.S, don’t you worry about me, I’ve found some people I can talk to at school and I’m not depressed anymore, well besides the PMS stuff I get once a month, but I guess I’m fine now. Just hate seeing that asshole at school everyday.
