Almost every time after ive masturbated i feel gross. Epsecially if ive watched or read something while doing it. And sometimes my tummy feels weird afterwards. A weird that i dont like. I feel like i want to puke. And long afterwards i still feel gross and i have to shower. I dont know why and i dont want to feel gross. Its normal and stuff, i know that. How do i stop feeling gross?
It sounds like you're just not comfortable with doing this. It's understandable that sometimes you might have a rush of your hormones which makes you do this, but afterwards you feel bad about it. It could be related to something that has happened to you, which makes you view it as something bad. Don't do anything that you're not comfortable with. You'll stop feeling gross when you're comfortable with it.
well its not like i do it because i think i should do it. I mostly just feel like doing it and then i do it. Hm.. well i dont really know why i feel bad afterwards.. maybe.. when i got my first boyfriend i had never touched myself. But he was.. he really wanted it. For some reason i never said no. Didnt dare. So the first time i actually touched myself was after i had already had sex multiple times with him
If you don't want to do something, you should say so. In a relationship you don't have to do everything the other person asks you to do. This could be part of the reason why you feel bad after you do it.
Maybe there is some emotional issue you're not even aware of, and that's what makes your tummy feel weird. Or that may not be it, but it sometimes happens to me that I feel tired or have digestive issues if I've been ignoring my feelings.
After masturbation I find I sometimes feel dirty and other times roll over contentedly and go to sleep, depending on how I see the experience as it's happening: do I see it as a "waste of time" or "cheap endorphins"? Or do I see it has an experience of connecting with my body (and my boyfriend if he's there too) and experiencing something beautiful?
You may find this blog post by Girly Jona interesting: http://girlyjona.tumblr.com/post/15999584321/a-jerk-off-description-in-the-second-person.