the thing is, that when i was in high school, my friend had a crush on this guy but he never noticed her and in the meantime he got a gf. After all, she found another guy and fell for him. But the problem is, that after some time i found her previous crush attractive. I told her about it and she said she’s fine with it and that she doesn’t like him anymore. I was chasing after his guy (despite the fact that he was in a relationship – i know i’m stupid) and he was making me feel like there’s a chance we could be together (all the cuddling, holding hands, you don’t treat someone who’s just a classmate like that). A few weeks later his friend told me that he’s reallyyyyyy into my best friend who had previously had feelings for him. I never told her that. I was hurt that he liked her over me, and she was all flirty around him and it was also bringing me down. After we graduated, we stopped talking to this guy. A few days ago he talked to her to ask how she was. And then me, her, him and other people from our former class met. He was all sweet as he used to be and i tried to talk to him face to face but there was always someone interrupting us and i had a feeling he didn’t wanna talk to me at all. When my friend joined us he was all over her and completely forgot that there were other people with us. I know it’s been going on for 2yrs now, but i don’t know how to cope with my feelings for him. He was the first guy that i truly loved. How do i let go