I’ve fallen in love.. I’d consider us to be close, however we’ve never actually met. I’ve never connected in a way that I have with her, I can tell her things that no other person has ever heard. It’s the same back, I guess we help each other.
But recently these feelings have grown, as I previously said I think I may be in love with her, but I know she doesn’t love me back. She tells me about the last time she had sex, and everything she did and the next time she will with her ‘fuckbuddy’… I tell you something, talking about that hurts me more than anything. I’m okay with that, I’m here to help her, but it hurts so bad.
I guess it’s mixed signals, she says things to me that indicate a relationship, and I say them back. Is it just harmless fun? Because I have had many sleepless nights over her, wishing she was by my side just like we talked about.