I had to move to a new city – where I know no one – to a new school. It was sprung on me last summer and I immediately knew I didn’t want to go, but when we got there I made a genuine effort to be positive about it all. But as I can’t talk to people it soon became more and more clear that I was all by myself and I had no one to talk to. And the friends I do have in my old city are an expensive coach trip away.
I usually make an effort in my school work because I want to get good grades so that I know I can rely on getting a spot in a university in London. I love the vibe there and it’s the only place I’ve ever wanted to live. But I started sixthform last September and I just can’t focus on my work because I feel too sad all the time, and when I try to do a homework essay question I have no energy and do it wrong. Most of the time I can’t get the work out of my bag because even that drains me. The school targeted me at As and I know I can’t get that. I’ve barely revised anything. I haven’t done any past papers. I want as many As as possible but if this carries on I’m going to get Cs. Then next year I’ll have to resit modules, or even just resit the whole year, which would be really embarrassing but I don’t know what else to do because I can’t get into Uni with Cs.
So far this whole school year I’ve dragged myself along – with LOADS of days off – with no friends, no one to talk to, and it’s the saddest I’ve ever felt. People say ‘you just need to talk to someone in your class’ but that won’t work. I couldn’t do it before and I can’t do it now because they all know I’m the person who talks to no one.
There are about 7 weeks of school left until my exams and I can’t do it. I won’t get good grades and that’ll delay London, and my family will be annoyed because they’ve embarrassingly labelled me as a hard worker. I feel like it’s too late and that I’ve ruined everything.
Anything of help or something to motivate/inspire me would be really nice. thanks