Is this over?

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Me and my boyfriend have been together for a year and some change now. We’ve had a lot of trials and tribulations. Our arguments used to get so bad, and this past novemeber, we got into a huge one. He went and got a picture from his baby mom. I found it, we argued, he begged and pleaded that he was sorry. Not even 3 weeks later, there was pictures in his email that he sent to himself. I confronted him, and he said they were from the same night, that he was being stupid, and he doesn’t want her. That he doesn’t speak to her. Etc. Now, that was my biggest fear coming true. I love him to death, but I cannot trust a word he says. He is proving that he loves me and he’s gone back to his old self, but I just cannot let it go. It’s like a tape player that keeps playing over and over again. It hurts me. I’m so emotionally drained. I just don’t know if I can do this anymore. It’s like what happened will never leave my head. It’s been almost a month since it happened, and I’ve tried and tried to move past it but I can’t. I can’t. I don’t know if this is right for me anymore. Like I can’t see myself without him, but right now.. I can’t even be around him without thinking of what he’s done. It’ll go away, then it’ll come back. I don’t know what to do. I need help. I can’t make this decision on my own. I wish things could work, but I just have so much hatred for her, and it’s like gearing towards him because he did it too. I just don’t know anymore. It’s not like he cheated, and the pictures weren’t provocative, but it’s the principle. He saved them, then sent them to himself again. I know our fight was bad, but I would never do what he did.

Category: Tags: asked December 16, 2013

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I have been in a similar situation and it was pretty recent so I can relate to the feelings your having. All I can say is that those feelings really dont go away. Like APeerLikeU said, once the trust is broken it takes some serious work to mend it. Honestly, I know its hard to hear because you love him and I completely understand, but you have to consider your feelings! Who wants to feel angry and bitter over something their partner did? I know I did for a long time and It completely drained me emotionally and eventually I ended up really resenting him. Dont do this. Take time for YOU to take care of yourself and your emotions! Right now, your in a sensitive state because he broke your trust and dissapointed you, and you need time to fix that. He wont be able to fix it for you because hes the one that caused it! Thats why you feel sick when you think of him sometimes! Im sorry that his happened, but it did and it is NOT your fault. I dont want you to continue to be in a relationship where you are feeling disrespected and disappointed by your partner because it really is exhausting and it really hurts.