Is this normal thing going on in my head?

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Since January, I have a problem. When I am sad, angry or frustrated suddenly, the voice in my head is telling me- ‘If you weren’t, your mother wouldn’t pay so much’ ‘If you weren’t, your friends wouldn’t have to care.’ ‘One day world won’t be big enough for every human. Why don’t you do a world favour and kill yourself?’

And I don’t even have to think about these things. It just suddenly comes to my mind and I have to yell at them. Every little thing gets me super sad and I am really jealous person so you can imagine how hard for me is to stay strong.

I’ve read about these people that had voices in their heads for five years and I admire how strong they are.

I want to tell about it to my mom but there are three things-

1. Maybe it’s not that serious and it’s just a normal thing going on in my head.
2. My mom will say that is just a adolescence going on.
3. My mom will say that our neighbours are spying on us and play some stuff into my ears (she done this before when I told her about other voices in my head).

I just can’t say anything to her anymore. Don’t judge me for it.

I have no idea what is going on. But maybe it is normal after all.

P.S.: I already visited 3 psychiatrist since I was 8 years old (Anxiety, ADHD, learning disorders…) and I started to self harm on the age of 9. I already tried to kill myself about 6 times but since January, I don’t have depressing thought nether I self harm anymore. I just have this voice in my head when I am sad.

Category: asked August 11, 2013

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No, its definitely not a normal thing! You should never feel worthless, because your life is a priceless miracle. The fact that you can live and breathe and think is a HUGE miracle and you should be grateful that you can walk this earth. You should seek professional help and try to find people you can confide in because you don't deserve these harmful thoughts. I wish you the best of luck in your path!
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You're not alone and I want you to know that right off the bat. And you're not broken. The important thing is to not act upon these harmful thoughts. My advice is to go forward and seek professional help. You sound like you could benefit from seeing a therapist and possibly a psychiatrist. If you can't trust your mother, find a trusted adult to help you find help.
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If i may im also a vicim of voices but i have sceams and sometimes daymares too since i dedicated myself to study my case in psycho-pathology i discovered that it usually happens due to childhood trauma or nural hyper activity ( in other words smarter then average brain)I learned to put an order to the chaos by naming voices and giving then personalities ever since i have learned that voices in my head are simply my brain looking at multiple perspectives of everything in my life and the reason it went negative was my constant stress and abuse by the real world.Wht oure going through isnt normal for people, but it doesnt had to be a problem can become a gift