I’m in a really good relationship. He understands me and is willing to help me when I ask for it. He never makes me feel guilty or bad when I want some alone time. He’s amazing. But sometimes when I’m alone I can’t help but have the thought of killing myself on my mind. Even though I’m happy I just want to slit my wrists and end my life. I just hate myself so much. How can I be so happy and still want to die?
This will be really hard but trust me it really helps, each morning and night you need to look in the mirror and tell your self out loud: "I love you, I really, really love you."
You need to speak to your underlying thoughts, your inner child, you need to accept yourself, forgive your past and love your self, only then will you be free.
Your realationships isnt the problem here .. obviously something else is .. you just have to start doing what you love and find a point in tour lofe where you wanna get and yes waking up each day and lookinh at yourself telling your self out loud " i love my self , i can do it " will bring you back up cuz who you gonna believe if not yourself .. you told your self you hate yourself now fix it .. do the opposite .. you need to find that picea of happiness i you .. and only you !! Forgive your self for eveything you done .. and start thinking positive . Talk to your self out loud dosent matter how stupid it sound after couple of days you will be able to see the diffrence ..