So my boyfriend just finished cancer treatments ( now got to see if it spread), i’m trying to go back to school and completely lost, was promised a job for over the winter and now been unemployed for 6 months. ive also been in so much pain i can’t dress myself and not 1 out of the 6 specialist ive seen can help me. but believe it or not this year has been the easiest one out of the last five. I feel so lost and helpless. is it possible that i’m just bad luck. i’m starting to think that’s my only option left. cause people said things would get better but they haven’t. ya its gotten slightly easier but no wheres near what i thought they meant when they said things would get better. i was imagining a month without death, debt, or even without being used my every single person i meet. sorry i’m ranting its just writing this all out makes me actually feel something.
