I always try to do something, and then I end up just putting it off till tomorrow, and then I never do it. My grades are terrible, and my mind is even messier. And adults will tell you, the older you get, the more you'll figure it out. I don't have until I'm an adult to figure it out. I have to start making choices for my future now. My grades may not really decide what college I get into until JR/SR year, but my grades do decide what classes I get put into, and what special opportunities I will receive. I need to know how to fix this. I just don't want to sit around and wait until everyone else is graduating without me. I just don't know what's wrong with me. Am I faking this? Is it all in my head? Am I crazy? I sure feel crazy.