Alright well… This has been going on for a few years. First off, I’m gay, I kind of just want to make sure I’m approaching this correctly.
I met him while he and my sister were dating. We got along really well, have tons of the same interests, we quickly became close friends. Soon I was actually falling in love with him and couldn’t stop thinking about him for weeks at a time.
We still talk on an almost daily basis, and it’s gotten easier, but I just can’t get over how much I love him. It’s almost scary. I would do anything for him. I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t resent his relationship with my sister anymore (my sister and I have some baggage) and would never want them to get divorced or anything because I know that would break both of their hearts. The messed up thing though, is I think I care more about him than my own sister.
They actually were just having a huge fight recently and they both wanted to talk to me about what was going on. Looking back I’m not sure if it was a good idea to get involved in that or not. I think I helped, but I’m worried I wasn’t looking at things objectively.
Regardless, I obviously can’t tell him or any of my family how I feel about him and that makes it much harder. I’m assuming I just keep going with how I’m going and hope that eventually I can just unconditionally love him. Like an actual brother. Sound about right?
