Improving my personality

You're definitely going through a tough time and you shouldn't blame yourself for it. It's probably not your personality that people think are annoying, and perhaps they don't think you are annoying at all. Maybe they just aren't sure about what to talk about with you. And having a social anxiety because of all those issues is definitely not strange, but it's also not permanent.

It's already very impressive that you've come here to share your story and look for help. Perhaps you can continue talking over forums to build your confidence in socialising. And when you feel more confident you can begin to socialise during classes, maybe strike a conversation with someone who you think could get along with you.

I'm not sure how you'd 'improve' your personality because you are who you are and you shouldn't have to be ashamed of it as long as you're trying your best. If they don't accept you for who you are then perhaps they aren't the people you want to be friends with. You shouldn't need to pretend to be someone you're not.

Remember to love yourself and stay strong. You'll get through this :) And everyone on here is here to support you <3 There are always professionals to talk to for proper advice if it comes down to it. But you're still young and things will definitely change for you as long as you give it your all! So don't be afraid to put yourself out there.

My therapist helped me manage my social anxiety by getting me to talk to people. I had to talk to two strangers a week. Like people in my classes and whatnot. Also, I would suggest getting involved in clubs and extra curriculars. It doesn't have to be sports, but you'll meet cool people to hang with and learn cool new things.Sending you hugs. Just remember that eventually it will get better and you will find a system that will work for you.

Having experienced social anxiety myself, my advice is to make sure you leave the house at least once a day. Even if it's just to walk down the street or go to the shop. During really bad periods of my social anxiety I wouldn't leave the house for weeks and that just made it so much worse and made it so much harder to leave the house for something really important.

As for the annoying thing, I used to think I was really annoying too - like nobody wanted to hear what I had to say and that nobody cared about what I had to say or that I was boring. So, my therapist filmed a conversation I had with a stranger and showed my the video, so I could see what I was like from the point of view of somebody else. It completely changed my perception of myself and made me much more confident that I was a mildly interesting person who actually had pretty good conversational skills! I would suggest trying something like that to see if you are actually annoying (unlikely), or whether you just think that you are (aka you have a misconception about yourself).