So i had a long distance relationship with my ex for about almost 6 years, we kept on going on and off for several reasons and we both equally hurt eachother. in 6 years we’ve broken up about 4 times due to some misunderstandings and distance. He came to visit me once and we had a good time, it was only for a couple days and i had been quite busy with work so i could barely spend time with him. hes from the west end of the country and im from the east end, we’re both from the extreemes so its very hard for us to meet up. however, after our recent breakup in 2012 we kept in touch to see if we can keep on going as friend to work out on the relationship but he wasnt making any effort and i kept on dealing with his rude attitude for about a year until i broke down and gave up on talking to him and making efforts. soon after, as usual, he spoke to me and apologized for his behaviour and wanted to get back into a relationship. but i was exhausted by all this drama and wanted a break, i told him we can keep in touch as friends but i won’t be making much effort to talk to him or have a nice convo with him. which i did, i ignored him many times, i used to feeell bad about it, but i just wasnt convinced that he had changed for good and really valued me. after few months things went smoothly but i kept my distances, and soon after, i met this guy at my university, we have this attraction towards eachother, after crossing eachother several times in the hallways after classes he finally spoke to him and we got to know eachother a bit more and he told me how much he loves me and wants to get seriously involved. The thing is, my ex is 3 years older to me, and this new guy is exactly 3 years younger.
I’m used to telling my ex everything that goes on with me, and one day, the new guy had suddenly kissed me at university, and i actually liked it, i didnt push him back, or stop him. and i was somewhat feeling guilty because i knew my ex still thinks im madly in love with him and that somewhere in the future everything will work out. while i was kissing another guy at my university. Im confused about these feelings, i know i have an attraction towards this new guy, i like being with him, i try to find excuses to cross him in the hallways, but at the same time i keep on thinking about my ex, i feel bad about all the bonding i had with him and how i can still apologize to my ex and fix things with him
i just dont know what to do…
move on and forget my ex or get involved into a new relationship with this new guy
i havent hidden anything from both the guys, my ex knows i kissed the new guy
and the new guy knows i still think about my ex
however, my ex and i havent spoken ever since the day i told him abiut the new guy
a part of me wants to get into a new relationship with the new guy at my university but a part of me is still holding on to my ex because he told me i have a chance to fix things and ill regret losing him if i dont fix…
i cant decide what to do
any suggestions?
thank you
