I’m terrified of life and I don’t know how to tell anyone

Hi there, I'm really sorry about what's happening to you, if this is any consolation I was in your shoes four years ago (I'm fifteen) and I can associate with everything you've mentioned above. I didn't tell my parents until I was thirteen and everything had ended. Yes, it ends, or at least it did with me; I remember times when I would heve cold sweath running up and down my body whenever I tried to go to sleep because I was thinking about unavoidable things. But once they come they usually turn out to be far from as huge as I'd imagined. I don't kow if you're in middle school yet but that's the point where things started to change, given I didn't have anything close to a good experience over there, I still felt more comfortable about life, I even started to look forward to it, seeing big things as good things, like college and growing up basically. So, take it from me, be stong, see what happens, I promise you things will turn out fine. Telling your parents wouldn't hurt, but if you're not comfortable teling them go to a guidance counsellor at your school, or a teacher, it's their job to help you with these things.

Hello young lady, I was surprised to read the age that you are. I never knew that what to call the things I experience (AKA anxiety) until I was 14. All I knew was that I had difficulty sleeping (that's a consideration in itself). Though I wouldn't be hard on yourself about how long it takes you to fall asleep as that may only stress you out more. One hour passes quickly so that's not so bad after all. But you could try helping yourself relax before bed ie: a nice warm shower/bath, read a book, listen to some music. Also, I think its really important you tell your parents how you feel in whatever way you think is best (perhaps at a quiet moment just ask to talk to them about something) Then once you have then perhaps you can go to the doctors with them and explain that you have been having trouble. They may be able to suggest counselling. This may seem drastic but lots of people have counselling and it can really help a person to overcome their worries and you can build a good bond with the counsellor who you will find it easier to confide to about things on your mind that you may find difficult to tell other people.... This may not be the treatment offered at the docs but regardless, the first step to getting something sorted would be to make an appointment. Good luck for the future :)

Thank you , I really appreciate it :)