Okay so, this isn’t really a question but it’s just, I don’t know.
For quite a while now I’ve just been feeling really overwhelmed and I can’t really handle it all too well.
I mean, I’m doing my A levels atm which is pretty stressful but then I’ve already had to give up on the massive dream of becoming a vet in the future which really really sucks and I’m visiting a lot of family lately who I’ve had to explain that too and it’s just, urgh, explaining how I’ve failed.
I’ve also got a few other ‘difficulties’ such as like, recently I finally came out of denial and came out to one of the friends as bisexual and she’s the only one that know and I know that I can’t tell my family because they’re homophobic (like always making jokes and saying how it’s weird and how people are brought up).
I also have a sister who I can’t really say or do anything around without her getting irritated (that’s just me especially.. Anybody else she allows to exist for a little while before she gets pissed)
And I don’t know
I’m just
I’m all over the place and I don’t want to just continue complaining to the same friend over and over
I’ve never really been the sad friend.. I’m meant to be the friend that tells awful puns and laughs
