I’m all over the place


Okay so, this isn’t really a question but it’s just, I don’t know.
For quite a while now I’ve just been feeling really overwhelmed and I can’t really handle it all too well.
I mean, I’m doing my A levels atm which is pretty stressful but then I’ve already had to give up on the massive dream of becoming a vet in the future which really really sucks and I’m visiting a lot of family lately who I’ve had to explain that too and it’s just, urgh, explaining how I’ve failed.
I’ve also got a few other ‘difficulties’ such as like, recently I finally came out of denial and came out to one of the friends as bisexual and she’s the only one that know and I know that I can’t tell my family because they’re homophobic (like always making jokes and saying how it’s weird and how people are brought up).
I also have a sister who I can’t really say or do anything around without her getting irritated (that’s just me especially.. Anybody else she allows to exist for a little while before she gets pissed)
And I don’t know
I’m just
I’m all over the place and I don’t want to just continue complaining to the same friend over and over
I’ve never really been the sad friend.. I’m meant to be the friend that tells awful puns and laughs

asked October 26, 2013

2 Answers

You don't have to give up on your dream. My mom went back to school a few years ago, and now she's a teacher. She's even working on a doctorate right now! Also, if you feel as if you can't talk to the same friend, maybe write down how you feel. If you don't want anyone to read your writing, you can shred it. And I don't know too much about how your school system works, but if your school has a counsellor, go talk to him/her.
maybe you should take some time to clear up your thoughts. there's obviously a lot going on in your life, you should stop and take a breather and take care of one thing at a time. you've already been explaining to your family about your studies, and you came out to your friend. but you should first go out with some friends and take your mind off of things. have some laughs to clear up your mind and get you away from reality for a bit. when you feel at peace, you could decide how to come out to your family and try to ease up the topic.