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My boyfriend and I are both 22 and have been together for over 4 years and we have a 1 year old. We were happily in love I till the moment he found out I was pregnant.
He gave me so much problems during my pregnancy that I didn’t think we would work out so my parents helped me out and bought me a fixer upper right next door to them when I was about 7-8 months pregnant. We’ll my bf and I ended up staying together and we moved into my parents small, very small back house. It’s now been a year and my house should be done by this month. It was sold in action so bought in cash so I don’t owe anything. And all the remodeling my dad is doing it out of his pocket since he use to build houses and knows how. My parents own a business where I slaved away and gave up my teenage years helping them work since I was 13. I’ve helped so much so it’s not like its free because I worked my ass off for my parents to build a successful business. We’ll my bf absolutely hates living here and tells me every single time we get in a fight. My parents do t get in our business and leave us alone but he still hates it.
I’m mostly a stay at home mom since I only work once a week because he works Monday-Friday from 8-5. I love staying home with our son and he wants me home so our son isn’t raised by a babysitter. I clean, cook, watch our son and he helps by washing his bottles at night (2-3) and he takes the trash out. Every once in awhile he’ll help with laundry too. But whenever he gets mad he always tells me I do nothing all day and he does EVERYTHING! I hate that!!
He always seems so unhappy and angry. When he gets mad he can’t talk like an adult he screams and paces around the room flapping his arms like a crazy person and if I tell him to calm down he just does it more. I’m so over it and sick of his temper that I don’t even care to listen to his bs anymore and just walk away. Of course it doesn’t help but once he gets screaming there’s no stopping him and he’s always right even if he knows he’s not.
Sex life- zero
After my c-section weeks later it still hurt to have sex and then I gained 27 pounds and I just felt unattractive (I’ve lost it now so it’s not an issue anymore) but on top of all that He was addicted to chewing tobacco and it got worse within the last few months that I even stopped kissing him because his breath would always just smell and it grossed me out but he quit last week but from all the fights and put downs I’m just not attracted to him in that way and we haven’t had sex in like 3 months.
I don’t need him. I have income, a home, and parents who help me when I need it. But I haven’t left him because of our son. We fight everyday and sometimes it’s even In front of our son and you can tell our son knows something is wrong because he gets upset and wants me to hold him. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel stuck. I feel like I have to stay because we have a baby but it might not be the best thing either since we fight in front of him.
Some advice would be appreciated
Also my son is very attached to me that’s why I’m afraid to leave my bf because then he’ll be away from me to be with his dad.
Since he was a new born my bf never helped at night and he’s a very heavy sleeper and won’t hear our son cry even if he was next to his ear.
Since our son is 1 and still wakes up atleast once a night will the court still have my son stay the night with his dad? That’s my biggest issue! His dad is such a heavy sleeper so if my son crys at night his dad won’t hear him! We’ve talked about breaking up and how I want my son to still sleep at my house because he’s a heavy sleeper and he tells me that’s not gonna happen and he’ll figure out a way to hear him.
I love my baby soooo much that I’m willing to live in an unhappy relationship until he’s old enough to move out. I’d do anything for my son! I’ll fake a smile for 18 years if I have to but even then I know my son will know that there’s not love between his parents and even though I try to avoid fighting I front of him my bf still doesn’t care and will raise his voice at me I front of him. I just want my son happy.
Sorry it’s so long! My feelings are just such a mess.