I am 17 and I will be turning 18 very soon. I do not have the money to move out but when I do I will definitely want to leave here. My family is bearable for now but recently it has been getting worse. My mom still has me go to bed early even if I am studying, I am not allowed to stay out late (Late as in 9:00 PM) and they just yell at me for small things when I try to focus on my own things. My siblings are also very annoying, especially my older sister and it has been making me want to stay on my college campus pretty much all day. I hate coming home because I have no sense of privacy and sometimes I just want to be left alone. The problem here is that my parents have been telling me ever since I was a child that I will not move out until I find a wife (that they approve of). I was born in the states but my parents were born in Pakistan and they have standards I simply cannot meet. I weigh out the pros and cons almost every night and pros always win. Now what is mainly stopping me are my parents and there constant threats and shaming of me. My dad always tells me I am a terrible child for mentioning it and my mom just piggybacks on what my dad says. Then when it comes down to it they say stuff like “Go ahead, just move out, I don’t care” and that bugs me because it just makes me not want to. Honestly it has gotten to the point where the only thing I will truly miss is my moms cooking. My dad tells me not to follow this “American” culture when really it seems like the only thing that will make me happy and help me get better grades in school. I want to be an independent adult and just learn from my own mistakes. But I just feel like I am still in high school coming home to constant criticism of my weight or even the smallest things like forgetting to wash a spoon after a small snack. Just to add a little more stress to my situation, I was born and raised a muslim, a very strict one if that, recently I changed to atheism but I cannot tell my parents because of fear. Having to pray every day for something you do not believe in, because you are forced to, is a very very hard thing to do. Thanks in advance. -A Fellow Friend