There are always people who care and who don't want you to be gone. The people here on blah care. I know life can look really dark at times and it might seem like there is no way out, but it won't always be like this. Try to think about positive things. Write down your good memories and look at those when you feel like this. You can put your music really loud or go for a run, but don't end your life. Dying is not a good idea. When you die, the people who love you stay behind with a void they can never fill. They'll feel guilty that they couldn't help you. The best thing you can do is reach out for help. I know this isn't easy to do, but it will help you. It's a big step to take, but it will help you to battle through this. There's always a reason to live, no matter how small, but there always is. Everyone deserves to be happy and so do you. I've had a lot of days where I felt exactly the way you're feeling. Remember that you'll never be alone. There are always people who feel the exact same way. I know people who battled through this and so can you. Tr to find some distraction for yourself. Do things that you like to do. Write all your thoughts in a journal. Scream if you feel like it, but don't commit suicide. No matter how dark everything may look, there's always a light somewhere. You're still young, you have so much to live for. You can never know what might happen in the future. They always say that everything in life is temporarily. You might feel like this for a long time, but it won't last forever. My inbox is always open if you need to talk. I sincerely hope you reconsider this. Everyone's life is worth something and so is yours. It would be sad if you'd be gone. You can get through this and you don't have to do this alone. Here at blah there will always be people supporting you along the way. The people here will be there to catch you when you feel. You can do this. I believe in you. Stay strong.
