i think i was raped

Miss Ashley, pay very close attention.

It was NOT your fault. Being raped is never the fault of the victim. What happened to you is not okay. If it just happened, do not wash yourself or your clothes. You could destroy evidence.

Go to the hospital and report your rape. They will give you a rape kit to evaluate you and collect evidence. Be strong and be honest with them. The first and best step to recovery from rape is not letting them get away with it. Turn your attacker in before they have a chance to rape someone else.

I know it is hard, but do not be afraid. You are among friends here. If you need to talk, my inbox is always open. Never let anyone or anything stifle your will to live happily. Most importantly, never forget that you matter, and you are not alone.

If you felt uncomfortable in anyway and you showed it, then it is rape. There is no fault in rape, even if it starts as consensual. If you say no but the partner/person does not stop then you have rights to take legal action against them.

Being through it all, shines a different light on this issue. I have been forcefully abused by a couple of men before and it makes you feel disgusted with yourself. It gives you this wrecked, broken feeling from within. You can never look at yourself the same in the mirror. And everytime somebody touches you, memories spring back up of what happened. Unless we know full details * circumstances of what happened, we can't answer whether or not it was rape darling. Maybe you thought you were ready and then after it happened realized you're not? But look, if you're blaming yourself - don't. And if you feel the need to report it to the police, then do it. I reported my case but i didn't go through with the charges because I wasn't strong enough, and this is the reason men keep getting away with offences. Girl, go get yourself checked out, the last thing you want is to have an STD or to be pregnant. I really hope it works out for you <3

I have a feeling I was in chat with you not long ago discussing this exact topic. If it was you, I just wanted to say I am so so sorry, my internet gave me the boot. Again, if it WAS you and you still wanted to chat, feel free to PM me :)

I've been in the exact same mindset, and really if it was forced or you were altered in some way too much to truly be clear headed, then it was. Sometimes it's very difficult to face the reality of it but you need to see it for what it really is, and then you'll know.

Wow, yeah, that is definitely not cool. I have no idea how you would get a conviction for that, but by rights they should be put away for rape and assisted rape. I hope you're not too badly affected by this; it's heartbreaking to read because you are just so perfect and beautiful, and I want your life to be filled with only good things. There are people you can trust in this world, but there are also fiends and those who will always take advantage, but they are in the minority. You have every right to be angry about what they did, and realise that it is in no way your fault, nor does it change who you are. How you handle it is entirely for you to choose, but realise that there are literally billions of people who have every respect for you and would gladly break every bone of the people who did this.

Um okay well I was with my best friend. She wanted to go out, and we had decided to go to a party. I called my mom, gave her our plans. Instead of calling the guy that was supposed to take us to the party (which is who my mom thought I was with), she called one of her guy friends. I didn't know him but he was a little older than both of us. He was definitely over 18 though. While in the car, they decided they wanted to have sex. I was still a virgin, and I told them that I didn't want to lose it yet. I'm no angel, but I wasn't ready. I didn't want it to be like that. They played around and more than once they asked me to join in. Every time I said no. I ended up giving him a blowjob. I thought that would be enough. Once they were done, instead of taking us to the party like he was supposed to, he took us back to his house. They went at it again. When they were done, he got on top of me and started kissing me. I didn't mind, but I told him I wasn't gonna do it. He said okay, that he wouldn't force anything. He unbuttoned my pants, but I didn't think too much about it. He had just told me he wouldn't do it. Jesus how could I have been such an idiot? Once I realized what was happening, I froze. Once I reacted, I tried pushing him off but he grabbed my arms. I tried wriggling out from under him but every time I moved, it hurt so much. He just kept going. The more I tried he harder he went. He wouldn't stop. I kept on trying to scream but she (my best friend) covered my mouth. Thank you, btw, for answering this.