Whenever I have to confront someone I get so nervous and I feel sick to my stomach like I’m going to throw up. When someone is mad at me I feel so nauseous I could throw up. Anytime I feel that someone has negative thoughts about me I want to run away from the world and I just feel so sick. Is this anxiety? I am constantly feeling down on myself for having a psych degree and for two years I am working at a drug store with no job prospects. I’m so tired of getting rejection emails and I was denied from grad school twice. I’m so down on myself about it I feel like a failure which also makes me super nauseous. How do I start to even talk to a doctor about this? I also am terrified of the dark to the point where I cannot sleep at night and it’s really affecting me. I used to see a counselor when I needed add meds but our visits were super short and everything seemed fine. Basically I cannot use my own education in psychology to diagnose myself lol. My question is does it sound like I have social anxiety and if so how do I even go about talking to my doctor about this last time I saw her everything was fine and that was 2 years ago.
Also as an extra thing with the confronting people, I am always a doormat to a lot of people and I’m tired of it but everytime I speak up when someone offends me I end up apologizing and they don’t. It makes me feel awful inside which is why I just stop confronting people. Recently I confronted this “friend” about something which basically we both were at fault but she did not apologize even though I did and it’s eating me inside I just feel awful about it. I really feel like I have social anxiety??? Or what???