I need peace of mind

Having sex for the first time is a big step in anyone's life, and everyone handles the after affects differently. Negative feelings are common, but they should not diminish the experience completely. It sounds like you are channeling your negative emotions into worrying about one thing: pregnancy. Just keep in mind that you did what you were supposed to. It was with a guy that you really cared about, which may have made the experience more special. And like you said, you used a condom and he didn't ejaculate. You were safe, and you did exactly what you were supposed to do. It is good that you are communicating with your partner, and you should continue to communicate with him. Talk to him about how you are feeling; open communication is helpful in these kinds of situations. Also, don't be afraid of having sex. Sex is a natural, beautiful thing! I know that you are scared right now, but do not be afraid of having sex in the future. And if it makes you feel more secure, I suggest looking into birth control, to use with a condom to even further reduce the risk of pregnancy.

Your first time is always scary, but you'll be okay! Sex is a great thing and big step in a relationship. Focus on the parts you enjoyed! Only half of guys have precum that can get you pregnant, and if he was wearing a condom the whole time then there's zero chance, especially if he didn't finish! Sex isn't something to be scared of, it's something to be enjoyed. Talk about it with your partner and do research to make you feel more comfortable. But remember it's your choice, and you don't have to do it again if you don't want to! If you do choose to do it again, you can get on birth control. That combined with using condoms will for sure keep you baby free!

Condoms are 99% effective, and if you were taking birth control, then that's 99% effective too. It sounds like there was very little to no chance of fertilization. If you're really worried, take a COUPLE of pregnancy tests (more than one, just in case of a false positive).