I don’t know if i actually is a transgender all that i know is that i just HATE being a woman.
I’ve hated it since it happend, the rape.
I’ve been treated like shit by my exes, 2 of them actually raped me and had sex with me several time without my consent and even when i resisted.
It’s been a while, couple of years, but the memories haunt me like echoes.
I’m diagnosed with PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder.
anyway, since it happend I’ve myself become really sexist against women and men.
I hate myself because I’m a woman but I know I shouldnt! I just feel so accused, traumatized and violated.
When I see a woman I automaticly see a victim
and when i see a male i automaticly see a offender.
I hate it but i cant help it!
I’m siriously having a desire to cut my boobs off and grow a penis, just because i think they’re having it much easier!
But I wouldnt know if they are.
Im just sick off the glares on me, my boobs body, the judgeing.
Im not a “girly girl” exactly but everyone tell me: “you cant do that or you cant do that because you’re a girl!”
i fucking hate it so much. please talk some sense into me. I dont want to feel like this simply because of my gender.