Every thing I do is painful. I absolutely hate being alive. I want to kill myself, but I am scared that I will hate the afterlife even more. I am just miserable for absolutely no reason. I’m living in constant sadness. Help me….
I have read your post and as a fellow human being I can understand,empathize with and respect your current emotional state. Believe it or not there is no "normal" and EVERY human being has and will feel like this not only at some point in their lives but at key points in their lives. Human behavior and psychology are a SCIENCE and that is good news as all of the emotional stuff people feel compelled to type in response to posts like yours are merely opinions. SCIENCE tells us why concretely. What you need to know is that when a person feels suicidal they are frustrated,disgusted,fed up and feel trapped or defeated by a situation. The situation is a negative stimulus that causes feelings of hopelessness and helplessness so great that suicide is believed to be the only release. Because there is no science confirming what exists after death your best option from a rational,non-emotional,scientific standpoint is to LIVE and FIGHT tirelessly and passionately. As ridiculous as this reads...suicidal thoughts are a breakthrough moment. You are presently as fed up and disgusted as you can possibly get with either something,several things or everything. If you continue to fight,science PROVES that you will overcome whatever obstacles are responsible for these thoughts and feelings. When humans cannot escape we are forced to fight. Eliminating escape (suicide) as an option will ensure victory. That's not an opinion nor an emotional utterance but rather a fact. We often have to be pushed to the point of insanity before we act. Suicide is final and there is no scientific proof of any afterlife. Life is all we have that we know of for certain to forfeit a sure thing is stupid. Instead of internalizing your discontent turn it into anger towards the circumstances that are responsible and take immediate corrective action. Life can and should feel liberating,effortless,enjoyable and exciting. Suicidal feelings are simply a mental alarm signaling that too much is not right at the moment. It is our brain's way of prompting change,not suicide. Only weaker minded people take a challenge as a cue to forfeit one's entire existence. FIGHT.
All the best to you.
Been there. Not until I went to the doctor and got help with counseling did it feel better. I woke up in pain. Went to bed in pain. Hated everything about myself and my life. Get help. GO now. You are worth it. The world is beautiful, you just have to take the time to see that part.
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Thank you for reading, I've been depressed for over a year, I just feel tired and worn down. I sit in my room and watch netflix all day to keep my mind off of my feelings. I feel emotionally detached I keep it all bottled up and it hurts. I use to be such a joyful person all the time but I feel over the course of this year I have just been falling into a quick sand pit of anger and depression and I'm tired of fighting the pull. Im just waiting for it to be over with. Today My parents sat me down and yelled at me all the things they think I need to do or not to do. I sit there silently crying trying to block out their condescending gravity, I just sit there with silent tears falling focusing on a speck on the window waiting for it to be over but it went for hours I get a disappointment filled lecture every day but today felt like they were kicking a sick stray dog. I hardly say a word any more, show no expression. My little brother, my mom and I live in one house, my dad lives in a different house only a few miles away, I have so much hate for him but my mom sent me to live with him till I go to camp.Tonight I was going to kill myself, my dad loves guns there are over thirty guns with unlimited bullets in the room next to me. I think that is one of the reasons I'm so mad at my mom is because I feel she is sending me to the family discard pile, I hate my dad and she doesn't know it but putting me in this house with guns, ropes, pills and knifes she is just tempting me to kill myself.It is so tempting and I honestly thought this was it tonight but I think I don't want to die, I want to be happy. My family hasn't seen me smile in months I haven't felt like smiling. How do I change? Should I just wake up tomorrow put on a smile and keep my feelings hidden? Please give me advice on how to push past this!! Thank you for reading!