OK Because of a prior question that I had, The main reason Why i’m really came on here.
There is a Women That I liked for a very long time now. I liked her since 8th grade in high school. She is beautiful, smart, funny, sexy, and smart. Her personality is just how I imagine that perfect girl for me. I think about her everyday and sometimes all day. And she says the same about me.But she only started liking me in 10th grade.( we are both sophomores in college)
I had multiply chance to get with her but I couldn’t do it. Its because I found out I have Schizophrenia. Actually a extremely bad case of it. I take medication but I still have times the it surfaces. I hear voices well my case on voice and I have delusions ( I see my best friend andre but He is dead). I sometimes Response to him if its a really bad day. I don’t want her to experience that part of my life. Its scary for people that are around, people would think i’m insane yelling or talk to something that is not there.
She is now dating this guy that I used to be good friends with. He is a not a gud boyfriend but I’m not goining to homewreck their relationship. That is not right.
I haven’t even talk to her for almost year but I keep thinking about her. I don’t believe in love. I seen to many people hurt by shit like that but I don’t know what else this is. If she ever was in trouble I would come for her. I would do anything for her. That is why I though it was necessary that I didn’t pursue her. So she wouldn’t get hurt but Its like i’m being tortured on the inside.
So when I heard about this site, I had to try to seek some kind of advice. Even if its not what I want to hear. I can’t keep doing this anymore.
Please what Do I do? Is this love? Should I go talk to her( she is in a different state now)? Should I try to forget about her? Should I keep trying to date other people?