I fucked up

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OK Because of a prior question that I had, The main reason Why i’m really came on here.

There is a Women That I liked for a very long time now. I liked her since 8th grade in high school. She is beautiful, smart, funny, sexy, and smart. Her personality is just how I imagine that perfect girl for me. I think about her everyday and sometimes all day. And she says the same about me.But she only started liking me in 10th grade.( we are both sophomores in college)

I had multiply chance to get with her but I couldn’t do it. Its because I found out I have Schizophrenia. Actually a extremely bad case of it. I take medication but I still have times the it surfaces. I hear voices well my case on voice and I have delusions ( I see my best friend andre but He is dead). I sometimes Response to him if its a really bad day. I don’t want her to experience that part of my life. Its scary for people that are around, people would think i’m insane yelling or talk to something that is not there.

She is now dating this guy that I used to be good friends with. He is a not a gud boyfriend but I’m not goining to homewreck their relationship. That is not right.

I haven’t even talk to her for almost year but I keep thinking about her. I don’t believe in love. I seen to many people hurt by shit like that but I don’t know what else this is. If she ever was in trouble I would come for her. I would do anything for her. That is why I though it was necessary that I didn’t pursue her. So she wouldn’t get hurt but Its like i’m being tortured on the inside.

So when I heard about this site, I had to try to seek some kind of advice. Even if its not what I want to hear. I can’t keep doing this anymore.

Please what Do I do? Is this love? Should I go talk to her( she is in a different state now)? Should I try to forget about her? Should I keep trying to date other people?

Category: Tags: asked September 22, 2013

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I would say that if you miss her, why not start talking to her again? I don't think it's right for you to pursue her romantically because she's in a relationship right now, but that doesn't mean you can't be friends again. And yeah you should date other people in the meantime just so you can get more experience with it and are sure of your feelings for her. Also don't think that people won't accept you, my boyfriend also has schizo and I've excepted it. It's not your fault that you have it you know it's just a mental disorder but it seems like you have it under control for the most part. But anyway, like I said just talk to her if you miss her, it can't hurt, but I wouldn't dwell on it too much and keep on thinking about the 'what ifs' because you are just going to beat yourself up over it. Anyway if you ever want to talk to me more about it feel free to message me -I'm also a college sophomore-. But yeah, have a good one.
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Hm... This is a tough one... Here's what I think... You haven't seen her for a year, she's in a relationship (presumably happy?), you aren't anywhere near eachother.... Maybe for now it's best to move on. If it's meant to be then I promise your paths will cross again. But for now just try to focus on other things.