I feel trapped (2-part Question).

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Starting off with the lesser of two evils… I always feel insane. I talk to myself, characters I’ve created are becoming multiple personalities and it’s simply hell for my brain to figure out. Any advice on that one?

The second part makes me feel bad. I’m a girl. And to be honest, I hate it. I hate the parts, the responsibility, the attitude, the whole package. I’m still a virgin if that matters and I’m only 17, so I’m not 100% sure about my feelings. I just know that I want to be a man. But not even a straight man. Moreso gay. As of now, I’m bisexual. But my mother always gets in my face and tells me how happy she is that she has a girl. Knowing my thoughts on the matter, it makes me feel bad. My mother is my favorite person ever, so I know she’d accept this decision if it made me happy, but I don’t want to be a disappointment to her. She’s already not okay with my sexuality. Any advice on this one? How do I approach it? SHOULD I approach it? Should I just sit back and accept my parts and life? Help!

Category: Tags: asked August 1, 2013

2 Answers

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Since the other person kind of already answered your first question let me help you on your second. I know what you are talking about I too have always felt like I should've been a gay man; but at the same time I do feel comfortable in my body so I don't think I would ever go through with it, just keeping it in my imagination. I would just make sure you are making the right decision, perhaps you are just feeling stressed out because of periods and whatnot? Anyway, you are still pretty young so perhaps just see what happens the next few years, maybe even have sex so you can have that experience of that as a woman. If you still don't enjoy your own skin, then definitely do whatever you want to do to change that so you'll be happier, your mom will support you no matter what, she may not agree with it but she will always be your mom. Since you said you aren't sure, you need to think about it, because this isn't something you can back out halfway through you know? You need to be fully committed, so ask yourself if you are going to be okay with the posibility of surgeries and other things of that sort. Have a good one, I wish you all the best.
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Hey , Im answering for your first question.. I do the exact same thing.. I actually sit in my room and imagine my friends or people i know/make up are with me and have full out conversations with them, I think im going insane all the time.. But i know some people that do this also .. I dont know why i do it .. I guess so i wont feel so alone for most of the time or I dont even know :c but you are not the only one that does it !