Hello, I am high school graduate, I plan to be an a digital artist. I am 18, and I draw comics, and use art programs. I haven’t been in college yet, but I plan to the next following year.
Lately, I haven’t been feeling as smart as my family or friends say. I really feel like an idiot, like I can’t do anything that smart people can do, like my boyfriend for example. My boyfriend is extremely intelligent, and he’s in college. He gets really excited when learning things about science and sometimes math, and I really can’t relate to him on those things because they bore the heck out of me. I’m the type that’s likely to remember things if I’m really interested in learning them. And I’m not interested in learning about much science (some but not all) nor math whatsoever.
But my parents believe I am smart, which to me I think they say that just because I’m their daughter. And I really don’t understand my boyfriend, he’s the smartest person I’ve ever met and he says I’m smart too, but I’m nothing like him intellectual wise, at least that’s how I see so, and it bothers me. I feel like I’m worthless in that area. And I know how important being intellectual is. I’m just afraid that one day he’ll see me as I see myself (not smart) and leave.
I feel intimidated by him. I feel I must start constantly learning things I don’t care for or really need for the sake of keeping him interested, to seem or be smarter. And if I really am intelligent, I just can’t see what others see in me.
