I never thought that I was that unlovable until recently. I see so many of my old friends with their boyfriends or girlfriends, and I feel terrible. Guys hate me. I’ve been told many times that I’m ugly, fat, disgusting, etc, all from guys that I thought were friends. Even when we were just joking around, and I’d try to hug them, they’d go, “Get away from me. You’re ugly.” I know that these people aren’t good to have around, but I didn’t know anyone else at the time. And, I really don’t think I’m that ugly. Sure, I’m not the skinniest person, but I’m not the biggest either, but I don’t think that really has much to do with beauty. And everyone always said that for liking music, and art, I was weird. Anyway, I just have this really bad feeling that I’ll never be loved. I’ll end up being one of those people that never has a true love. I know I’m only 17, but I fear that everything is just downhill from here?