I’ve never really done something like this, so bare with me :L
I’ve been with my boyfriend for 9 months now, and I know i’m only 17 but I love him with all my heart and soul.
I’ve long suffered depression and really bad anxiety and I have a fucking load of emotions just in my head. My emotions control me a lot, and I beat myself up because of it. My boyfriend is extreamly caring of me and understands this, and makes sure i’m okay all the time. I’m just worried that one day he’s going to crack and he won’t want to listen to me complaining or getting upset about something anymore. Last time I spoke to him I asked him what he’d think if I didn’t have all the heavy emotions attached and he said even if I did or didn’t he’d only wish me to be happy. Recently i’ve been… slowly withdrawing the emotions from conversations even though it’s killing me inside.
He doesn’t want me to hide and put on the “perfect girlfriend” face where i’m happy and not bothered at all. But he knows how I feel, and i’m so scared that when he cracks, that he won’t love me anymore.
What do I do? I can’t control how I feel its how my brain works, and I don’t deserve someone who deals with my stupid anxiety and moods and all of it. :L
Please help… anyone.
