This is really killing me…
So I’ve been talking to his this girl for awhile now and I’m really starting to like her and I think she’s starting to like me back.(think) we flirt allot and she’s even talking about heading over here in Chicago for C2E2 (Chicago Comic Con Entertainment Expo) and planning to cuddle with me in the hotel room…(and maybe more then that but moving on)
I don’t wanna tell her I want our to be more then friends yet cause I wanna wait till she gets here ( she lives in Scotland and I live in Chicago)…..
but here’s the thing…I’m not sure if she has the same feelings for me as I do for her.
I’ve told her stuff like “I can’t even put it into words how much you mean to me.”
or “I really hope I’m able to have you in my arms next year for c2e2, if you can you will be the only thing I will focus on. and if c2e2 can’t happen next year I’m gonna see what I can do if I can fly to scotland.”
and she acknowledges it….by saying stuff like “:D i saw, i d’awwed <3" or just a smiley face…or just a heart or a wink face….and really….that's it..
the only one thing she told me anything that seemed romantic was talking about cuddling with me at a hotel room…had the same sex dream I did….she calls me cutie….she uhh…-glomps- me witch I just looked up the meaning of the word and I guess it means a dramatic hug..and I think….(she a real tease) she talked about giving me a bj…yeah.
and one day we where talking about what makes us happy and I told her how she always makes my day better when I talk to her and she said this
"you certainly make mine better "
but…idk most times she likes to play video games then talk to people on facebook or skype….the other day she told me she had a dream about having sex with a good friend of her's…she even said she wasn't even supposed to have that kind of dream…same day she told me I make her day better….
what should I do? should I ask her when I get a chance today how does she feel about me?…I don't know how to think anymore…I hate the emoticon responses…they really bug the shit out of me…..
the one I mostly can't stand is "XD" now when I know I'm being funny I love seeing that emoticon….but when I'm flirting or trying to be serious, I wanna rage quit….I don't know what to do…