well.. this is hard to explain.. mainly because i have no idea why.. but i cant love?
I have been in multiple relationships trying to figure out what it is that makes me what to run away and hide when i have feelings for someone. Its not nerves because i crave love with every fiber of my being. i dont know why but when i am with my significant other or near a person that i like i cant be around them.. if my (boyfriend) tries to hold my hand or hug or kiss me i feel like im being rushed into sex or what ever. i just feel attacked and uncomfortable and in some ways disgusted and terrified.. this has lead to many failed relationships.. the only conclusion i cant think of is social anxiety but i fear that there is more.. i need help.