So I live in a FUCKING UGLY OLD HOUSE WITH A LOT OF CRACKS AND DUST AND UNFINISHED SHIT,
Which makes me scared.
Because usually there are spiders in those kind of houses,
So when we just got the house we installed a shower quickly into this GROSS ROOM WITH CRACKS ON WALLS AND SHIT,
And I didn’t mind it at first but then anxiety came around and spiders came around and..
I feel like I can’t shower anymore without getting scared,
I hate getting naked in that room,
I hate walking around that room,
I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT ROOM!
I was about to shower just now and I invested the room like always and BAM, THERE IT WAS… HUGE..
I’m trying to stop crying as I write this, I’m so paranoid, I feel like there are spiders all around me in this stupid house, everywhere, hidden behind those walls, laying eggs..
I’m about to have a breakdown..
I can’t even feel safe in this house,
I always feel like there is a whole spider estate in the corners..
I’M NEVER SAFE!!!!!
Please help, I need to shower,
I NEED TO. THERE’S A DANCE TOMORROW AT SCHOOL IDK WHAT TO DO!!
I’m so scared, I’m crying, shaking, screaming..
