I am thinking that my only option is suicide

I am sorry for posting the same question.

I am petrified. I am in a domestic violence household for at least 6 years but I have been refused housing benefit because I have a french passport and I have never worked. My abusive family never let me work or I would have found an escape to leave them. The women refuge lady tried job centre and I have JSA. Also I am doing a degree with the open uni but I don’t know if they do grants or bursaries.

Refuges will only take me if I have housing benefit to cover their rent, I have no family to go to. No friends will take me without their parents judging. I’m alone and I was beaten up which was my fault because for the first I hit that abusive person because I bottled the abuse for 7 years and I just couldn’t hold it anymore. Then they hit me back, I had to go to doctors and then went hospital but I lied that I fell down the stairs because I am scared my siblings are going to be taken away from my parents. My parents are lovely to my siblings it is just me because I am a girl. But social service will never understand that and I would just destroy my siblings education and life and my relatives would not be good guardians for them, they hate us for no reason.

Please help

Category: Abuse asked July 13, 2014

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mkaye

2 Answers

it is stupid to think that social services won't understand, however they don't act on your feelings the act on whats best for you.i suggest you call 911 immediately if your being violated and treated badly for simply being a girl, call human rights or women rights and if you're younger than 18 child rights....look up the no. in your country this is serious.your siblings will not suffer and i doubt they will be sent away if anything you will be removed from that household and the parents will be questioned and judged....don't be naive...no matter what you feel your health, education and life should be your top priority not others, pick up the phone and call out to get your rights and thats the most fulfilling option, unlike suicide which is stupid after all pain doesn't end pain.

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maha

Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds That's all it's about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn't even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could

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