Oh man, don't worry dude, I've been there. I used to be so depressed to the point where it physically hurt. Like most people hold their hearts you know? but I would feel weird pains in my arms and legs at the same time and it was just fucking awful. I wanted to give up then but I want to tell you not to give up. You ever work out before after period of non-exercise? your body gets very sore. the reason why it's sore is because your muscles are broken down and rebuilding itself.
Think of your depression as a period of soreness, after a while you will say "fuck being depressed i need to do something about it" and you will see growth and change and strength stem from what was a huge weakness.
It all starts with you, and a change of your mindset. find reasons to feel passion, find reasons to love and find reasons to be thankful even if its something as small as "wow, i can feel feelings that's pretty cool" You'll be okay bro, the sun rises tomorrow. It will rise again the day after, and every day is one more day toward healing. Remember that. You'll get through it, everything will be alright but you need to give it TIME, and you need to put in a bit of your own effort. You will find something, just keep your head up, (or down if you find the sidewalk to be interesting) land keep looking. I promise you will be okay, and if you cannot find it on your own there is always ways to get support. feel free to message me whenever btw
