I have binge eating disorder. I get an over whelming desire and urge to eat until I feel sick. I can’t control myself around desert and sugar anymore. I was at a party and told myself I’ll only have one cookie and after that throughout the night I couldn’t stop thinking about having another cookie. It was itching at my mind. So I ate another, then another, then I found myself eating literally 20 large cookies! I’m not even lying. I went back home feeling sick and I purged for the first time. It’s like I ate the cookie just so I don’t have to feel the urges. Because I just want to stop the urges. How do I stop these feelings? How do I fix my relationship with food? How do I control what I eat?