Hi I’m 15, I’m a girl and am currently hating life. I haven’t been feeling good lately and have thought about is a lot, I think I have depression. No I’m not looking for attention, I don’t want to tell anyone and I don’t want anyone to know.. I just don’t want to feel this way anymore. I’ve felt is way for months and I know that depression is a common things for teenage girls from hormones and stuff. I feel numb all the time, I barely ever feel happy anymore.. I feel excluded from everything and feel like no one likes me or no one cares. I used to self harm but got over it for reasons. I can barely sleep anymore because of all he crap in my head.. My fears are really freaking me out. I just come home after school and sleep. I want to talk to someone but I don’t know how… I don’t want to bring it up because I dot want to seem like I’m looking for attention… And I really don’t want to be told that I’m “broken” or something.. Please help. Any advice would be so amazing. Thank you so much for reading all of this.
From experience, I can say that the best thing you can do is seek help. Understandably, you don't want to come across like you are craving attention, but you can't keep living this way and expect that things will change. Not to frighten you, but the sleep deprivation will only make things worse. Tell your parent(s) or guardian(s) first of all, and seek out therapy. You may also want to consider medication, depending on what your doctor recommends. Also, now more than ever, you should surround yourself with a group of people composed of your family and close friends that can support you during this time. I know that was just a very brief answer, but if you need more details, feel free to message me privately.
Most importantly, remember these two things: You're NOT alone and you CAN overcome this. Half the battle is just believing that you can win.