When I was a freshman in college I meet this senior. He was on the football team that a managed for and he was a director at the radio station I was djing for. He was the first guy on campus, or in general for that matter, to ever treat me not only as a person, but as a friend and as an equal. After a semester I noticed I had fallen for him. I looked forward to seeing him at the radio station and I would volunteer to produce when he was broadcasting just so I could hear his voice. He completely changed the person who I was into who I am. When I finally told him about my feelings after about a year and a couple months of having fallen for him, he politely turned me down and made sure he hadn’t hurt me, which only made me more attracted to him. We still talk to ea other and he comes to me with his major decisions in life, like possible job offers and I’ll send him ads for jobs at where I work because it’s along the lines of what he wants to do. Every time I talk to him though I just want to tell him over and over how much he means to me, even though I know it’s not fair to him. I want him to be happy, but I also want to be his. Thought on dealing with this or coping with it?
