I grew up in a very strict and religious family. I always felt as if my parents mostly my mom shoves her religion down my throat. I believe in it but I am not super like Oh YESS CHURCH. That’s not me, I have being so pessimistic but it’s never going to be me…
Honestly if you don't want to confront it now (Which I understand) you'll have to wait till you're on your own and do what you want. The typical reaction to very religious people finding out their kids don't believe on God or are not as intense as them is they punish them which has an opposite reaction because it creates a negative link between God and punishment in your mind subconsciously. But yea, those are your choices, either talk to her and face her punishment or stick it out till you are on your own. I know you're looking for some magical choice to where you can just do your own thing but there isn't one :-( Good luck
I recommend that you talk to the pastor at the church. The pastor will have heard stories similar to yours and will be able to guide you through your own feelings and your relationship with your mother. And don't be afraid to use the same language that you used in this post. The pastor probably doesn't want your mother shoving religion down your throat either!
Why should you feel guilty in the first place? It was imposed on you. It's pure child indoctrination. Thinking differently just proves that you're able to have critical thinking, and is a good thing, so keep on doing that, and don't feel guilty one bit for being a rational person.
To be part of a religion and faith you have your own free will to decide what you want to do. Your mother thinks it best you be part of a strict religion but if you dont feel this is the right way for you then i suggest you talk to your mum and tell her how you feel or someone you can confide in to work up to telling your mum how you feel. Its all down to your personal opinion if you want to be part of a religion or not and how strongly you believe in it.
I admire your honesty :D How long do you think you can bear it? I mean, when you move out of the house you can do whatever you want!
OR you make a deal with your mum. You tell her that you will go to church till a certain age, and then you will decide if you want to continue the churchgoing or not. Don't ever do it just to please her though, she will keep on guilt tripping you forever. My opinion is that you can pray, serve and believe in god even without going to church every Sunday. If you stop going it doesn't mean you turn your back on him(or her :D).
I know you might feel guilty, but apparently you don't feel the need to be as devout as your mum. Your mother might not understand though, but she loves you, so in the end I think she will respect your choice :D and if not.. well, just keep the subject religion out of dinner conversations :P
Personally, all my negative feelings about religion went away when I came around to atheism. I grew up in a fundamentalist Southern Baptist household, so I know all about having religion shoved down my throat and being literally physically dragged into a church.
Replying "I dont wanna I need to study" worked for me when I was still studying each time I got asked if I want to go to church. I see that parents usually want their children to have good futures through education and bringing good grades is priority. I guess she got tired. She never asked anymore.