First off I'm so sorry that you went through that, that's just awful. I personally wouldn't ever forgive him, let alone ever want to see him again. But they always say it's easier to hate someone than forgive them. So if you find the strength to forgive him that would be so amazing and commendable. But it's completely up to you. I mean it didn't happen to you that long ago, so I would understand if you didn't forgive him, for the time being I think he deserves the guilty conscience he did awful things. Again, you don't need to say it for his sake, if you don't want to then don't. Don't feel guilty because he's going to die, you still had terrible things done to you by the hands of that guy. When he passes away though I'm sure a few years down the road you will be able to forgive him, save it for that, at least know that he tried when he was alive but you just weren't ready for it. Regardless don't feel bad if you aren't able to forgive him right now because it's your choice; and whatever one you make won't be a bad or wrong one. Best of luck, have a good one.