I can't say anything that I really know will help you personally, but these are things that helped me as an individual:1.) stay away from triggering material.don't watch self harm YouTube crap, don't look up pictures on Google or instagram. Also avoid depressing tumblr/Instagram/social networking accounts.2.) ask yourself what makes you want to harm yourself?is it a person, your own thoughts, or do you not really know why? if the answer is specific, try to find ways to fix it, like cutting off harmful relationships, or so on.3.) talk to someone.self harm is a lot to deal with. keeping it a secret could seriously damage relationships, and most importantly, you. There are so many willing people here to vent to, but I highly suggest finding someone you trust in your community.- - -most importantly, relapse is okay. it happens, but you can make the decision to keep fighting. I'm glad you've reached the point where you are searching out help. it's a big step :) stay strong <3