i went out with her for 4+ years…. she honestly was the first person who ever saw something special in me. i think that’s why is hurts so much to let her go. she was a horrible girlfriend towards the end though. played me like a fiddle. then came back to me like i was left over pizza. its been like 8 months now since we were technically together maybe more. we would break up so i lost count.. and i still think about her.. randomly cry in the shower. a couple months ago she left to mexico and got a new girlfriend(not surprise because shes beautiful) and it didn’t bother me because i was working at the time and i didn’t know anything about her so there was nothing to be hurt over. BAM she comes back, tries to contact me. i insisted she should just leaving me alone. she doesn’t bite. she called every other day or two just saying how she just wanted to see me and all this bullshit. i finally caved in… a little advice NEVER answer your exs phone calls… especially if you still love her. anyhow now i’m here. wondering how/why i let her get back into my head… what was that rendezvous about? closure?i just want to cry and cry… like i’m hoping she will come and pick me up… yeah i know she wont… but that doesn’t keep me from hoping she will…