I understand what you are going through, I have the same complications with my boyfriend. I tried many things and they seem to have been working. Sit down with your boyfriend and talk to him about things that are happening in your life and in your mind. Tell him that it is important for you for him to understand what you are going through and for him to be there. When things are bad, you need loving and for him to care. I know it might be hard for him to understand, because my boyfriend doesn't understand how hard it is to go through this, but tell him that it would mean a lot for him to try and understand a little bit. He might not know what to do or say. But talking about it always helps. I am sorry that you are having a hard time. My inbox is always open, so feel free to message me if you need someone to talk too or advice or help. I hope I helped, and I hope your boyfriend will try harder to help. *hugs*