Hey, I'm a Christian and I was recently in a similar situation, and I want to let you know that you're not alone. I agree with you about homosexuality being a sin, though I sometimes have doubts, that's what I have always understood and that God says. It's one of the reasons I was so angry at Him for a while, though not the main one, which had more to do with poor health, mental and otherwise, abuse, trauma, etc. I'd say that you have a choice to make. You can pursue this relationship with your friend, which she doesn't seem to want, you believe is sinful - as I do, and you have seen comes from desires that are tainted with obsession, which any good counselor will tell you is unhealthy and likely to end badly, whether they are Christian or not. As a Christian, and as a woman with Depression, I think you owe it to yourself to consider this decision cautiously. In addition to losing your friend, you could lose your faith, you could lose more of your independence, and you may find yourself falling deeper into depression if you decide to pursue things with someone and they don't go well. The way I see it, you need to be able to stand on your own two feet - not going it all alone - but I think you need to break the hold your feelings have on you. Instead of them swaying you, I'd like to see you swaying them. You're part-way there, holding onto your convictions, but, I'm not sure if that's because of your own moral code / spiritual perseverance, or because you believe she doesn't return your feelings, and feel unworthy of being in a relationship with her. Hopefully, and probably, I think, it's a bit of both. I think you need to give yourself a little more power, and a lot more strength. Look up "mental toughness" and "emotional resilience", and see if you find some things you may be in need of, in your life. Reach out to those around you who will help steer you down the right path for support. Seek counseling, therapy, etc. if you haven't / aren't already for your Depression, and anything else you need help with. Try to put a little distance between you and your friend. Just for a while, just while you gain some strength and support, so that when you decide what you want to do, you're making a decision from a place of strength, not a place of confusion, distress, or where you feel like you have to compromise who you are and what you believe in. Remember, above all else, that whatever choices you make may have consequences, and that it's your life - and you are the one who has to deal with the consequences of your actions, whether they be good or bad. If you do something that causes you to lose a friendship, then you suffer. You may not be the only one who suffers, but no one giving you advice will suffer the consequences the way that you will. I'm not trying to paint it all negative, but I want to impress up on you, and anyone else in this situation that if you aren't careful with your friendships, especially when it comes to sex and romance, you can ruin them, or, at least, do a lot of damage. You can hurt people you care about, and you can really hurt yourself. Also, feelings change. You can be totally, completely in love with someone, and with time, distance (emotional most of all, but physical tends to help), other people to hang out with, a healthy mindset/attitude, a complete willingness to submit to God's will for healing and restoration, perseverance, and, of course, if it's God's will, then your friendship can be restored. I believe it because He's doing it for me. (And I had the complication of semi-reciprocal attraction and feelings. Note, I did say "semi". I don't know about a "healthy" lesbian relationship, but anything with someone where they really aren't all-in tends to be painful and damaging. It's all possible to heal from, but I, for one, get tired of the scars - and hurting others. It's one thing when it's just me. Dragging someone else along for the ride... *cringe* Always harder to get over, even if I didn't really drag them, they were eager and willing, but I know I hurt them. It's especially hard to forgive myself when I know I've helped Satan pull someone away from God. That...makes me feel really low.) Anyway, you can write, even if you'd like to tell me a thing or two. Hopefully, something I said was helpful. I really tried. And, whatever you choose, I hope you hold onto God, and I hope you find some peace and healing. Depression is hard. Relationships are harder. :P lol. Maybe. They're definitely harder with Depression, don'cha think?!! XD I've gotta go now, but I bookmarked the page, and I'll check back, so if you, or anyone else, want to talk to me about this or something similar, comment, send a message, whatever. (I'm new here, so I don't know all the options yet. lol.)